And It Was All Yellow........

I sat next to you as we drove down the small countryside lane and through the chilly autumn sunshine.

You were happy. Happier than I had seen you in such a long time.

As time passed and we rambled down the deserted road the smile on your face grew.

I was happy. It was bliss to just sit next to you and enjoy the comfortable silence.

The car began to slow and drift to the side of the road. I was pulled away from my thoughts and comfort and happiness to see you engulfed in pure joy.

You turned off the car and got out and leaned against the drivers side door. I got out as well and stood next to you. All you could do is stand and stare at the trees turning colors all around us. "Amy, It's so yellow, I haven't seen this color since I was little. This is what God looks like"

Something inside you at that moment finally broke through and reached the surface and your sight...your inner sight...began to clear and show you the beauty of the world around you like you haven't seen in a long time.

You put your arms around me and hugged me close and kissed me on the cheek. You didn't let go for a very very long time. I didn't mind in the least. I felt love bursting at your heart and it was joy!

You let me go and looked at me. Smiling like I had never seen you smile before you told me how you loved the look of my eyes in the autumn sunset and asked me to dive the rest of the way, you wanted to enjoy your new found sight.

I took the wheel and you climbed in the passenger seat. Enraptured at the new color you found in your life, you put your arm around me and we drove onwards, through the country lane, surround by the trees...and it was all yellow.

I'm Fabulous

Hello Blogger Land.

So sorry I haven't been around much to fill you up with my Head Fluff this last month or so but things do tend to get a bit busy from time to time. You know how it goes.

Lately I have been feeling alot of weird nasty energy around me and this is unusual for me. I am pretty good at keeping this kind of Junior High Bullshit at bay and out of my bubble. You know the type....A lot of whispering and back talking and nit picking and small pointy jabbing when they think I am not looking or listening. What they don't realize is....I'm always looking and I'm always listening.

At first it hurt. Yes I do have tender feelings, I am a Leo after all, and as I sat here contemplating the why's and wherefore's of the situation a phrase my mother use to say to me came floating into my head...."You got a case of the LBBB'S" (Little Bitty Bitey Bastard's or in my case Bitches!)

Why yes mother, I am covered in LBBB's. Everywhere I turn these last few days I am running into Bitches biting and poking at me behind my back. For the longest time I couldn't understand Why? I am friendly, I am open and honest and very Loyal....then it hit me.....

That Green Eyed Monster thingy...you know....It's called Jealousy.
LBBB's are jealous just for the simple fact that I am utterly and truly FABULOUS!!!!!! Big head.....Not so much, I question myself everyday about who I am and what I am doing with my life. Always questioning that I am making the right decisions for me and my children. I am always wondering what others think of me and how they react to me. Questions Questions Questions.

I am not so fabulous that I am immune to issues in my life. I have had my share of troubles come up in my life and yes, Some of these troubles are worse than others and alot harder to deal with than most people can handle.

However, It's how I deal with all these Questions and Doubts, It is how I deal with my issues and troubles that makes me truly fabulous.

I stay true to ME!!!!! I love who I am, I love what I do and how I do it. I love my knowledge, My quirkiness, my unending energy and my unyielding power to love with my entire being. I bow down to no one and I wont change my attitude or way of self being to suit someon's ideas of who I should be. I am here on this Earth to make the most out of this life I have. I am here for ME!!!!!!

Yes I question myself everyday, But I am also fortunate enough to get answers to my questions, and the answers I get tell me I am on the right path doing the right thing and to let no one AND I mean NO ONE get in my way on my path to true happiness.

I look at the troubles and issues that have been laid at my feet and yes at times they can be tiring and spirit breaking, yet, I cannot and will not let them break me. I look at these challenges as just that...Challenges. Learning Opportunity, A chance to grow and become better than I had been a minute before, a day before, a week before a year before, a lifetime before.

It is this attitude that has helped me to succeed at anything I put my mind to and its that success that make these LBBB's jealous and bitey stabby poky pains in my ass. But its OK, Its just another challenge to help make me a better person with more love in my heart and more patience to deal with these tiny beings who cannot get past there own self doubts and there own questions and challenges. This is helping me to understand why Individuals like this cannot look at the truth of there own lives and do what they need to do to make themselves the best individuals they can be. In a way, I feel sorry for these people who participate in these types of Junior High Antics. There is no chance for them to learn and grow and that is heart breaking.

An old saying comes to mind...."When you assume you make an Ass out of you and me"

And lastly, A snippitt I read on Facebook sums this whole Blog post up nicely.

"Do not worry about people talking "behind your back", it just means that you are one step ahead of them and they are exactly in the right position to bend over and kiss your ass!"

So get out of my way Bitches, I'm Fabulous!!!!!!

My Weekend And How The Celtic Cross Explains It All

I had the best weekend.

It was full of Harry Potter, A trip to Roy and Chock full of Sleeping In and reading. Not to mention a certian amout of HIGH Dragon Energy comming from a certian someone.

The Energy I was reciving was amazing. I hadnt felt that kind of Energy from this particular individuale in alog time.

I pulled my cards and I did a reading concerning this energy bieng directed at me. Me and my curiosity. LOL

I did a celtic Cross spread. This is what it looks like.





1. The Basis:
The basis of the situation. The general tone of the reading and the problem for the querent.



The Hierophant
Tradition
What has worked before works equally well now. History holds many answers. Some rules simply cannot be broken. An adherence to tradition, old rules, the cycles of nature and the most fundamental truths.

2. Obstacles:
The challenges or obstacles that lie in the querent's path. This "crossover card" is always read in the upright position.



The Star
Hope
Faith brings unexpected assistance. Dreams should never be put aside and must always remain part of one's personal life-equation. Hope springs eternal as does the light of the star. Look far into the distance.

3. Subconscious:
How the querent truly feels about the matter. These are hidden thoughts, fears or emotions which may come into play now or at a later time.



Four of Cups
Mixed Emotions
A confusion of emotions and thoughts. That which was once clear has become sullied with too many outside forces. Something has gone off course. Remember what you want. Avoid temptation.

4. The Past:
The events in the recent past that influence or effect the querent's question. Possibly a person, an event or a previous psychological or spiritual state.



Nine of Pentcals
[ inverted meaning ]
A bad risk. What was ventured has now been lost. A waste of time or money. A message regarding damage and loss.

5. The Conscious:
The querent's surface feelings, or conscious thoughts on the subject. Compare with Position #3.



The World
[ inverted meaning ]
A false sense of completion. To "rest on one's laurels". Becoming lazy after a minor accomplishment. The road goes on, do not rest here.

6. The Future:
An event, state of mind, person or spiritual state that will occur in the future.



Four of Wands
Perfection
Visual beauty and perfect grace. Unions of perfect harmony and beautiful synergy. The pursuit of flawlessness. A good relationship.

7. The Querent:
This position gives insight into the current attitude of the querent and how they fit into the situation.



Eight of Pentacles
[ inverted meaning ]
Sloppiness. A task that has been completed without care. A failure to learn from the mistakes of the past. An oversight.

8. The Environment:
This position relates to the relative surroundings of the querent in this matter. Consider relationships including friends, family or professional associates.



Ten of Wands
[ inverted meaning ]
Difficult demands are met. Inhibitions are overcome. A time for personal liberation is at hand.

9. Hopes and Fears:
This position provides insight into the querent's outlook about resolutions and outcomes of the situation -- or who the querent hopes (or fears) will be involved.



Seven of Pentcals
[ inverted meaning ]
Diligence. An attention to detail at every level. A labour of love. A task which bears the mark of attention and perfectionism

10. Final Outcome:
This position gives a glimpse into the final outcome of the situation and how it will play out over time.



Temperance
Moderation
Moderation in all forms including spiritual, physical, intellectual and emotional. Walk the middle path. Balance and even-handedness.

What this all boils down to is, I was throught about alot over the weekend by this certian individual and the things that I have wanted and wished for could come to pass if I have paitents.


Good luck to you all and remeber, Brightest blessings.

Hey Amy, Are you a Werewolf?

Have you ever had one of those days? Not a bad day.......exactly, but not a great day either......Just a wierd day.

One of those kind of days where work is abnormally busy. One of those days that the people you are dealing with on the phones are a little...Ummm....Lets be nice and not say...."Coughs"......Retarded maybe? How about we will call it Moon Struck! Yeah Moon Struck is a good word for it. One of those days that leave you feeling dizzy and not knowing if you are comming or going.

I am having one of these types of days. The phones are ringing off the hook with the strangest and mostly.....STUPIDEST things you could imagine. (I swear to the God's someone has had to have dumped a HUGE supply of Valume and/or Cocaine in the Main Water supply for America because almost everyone around the country I have talked to is ether High or just doesnt give a fuck) Little bits of Drama keep popping up in my perosnal life that I thought I had squashed along time ago and I am now Having to squash again and all my guy freinds around me feel the need to tell me just how horney they really truly are at this very moment....Like I can or WILL do anything about that...AAACCCKKK

My friend Tonya was mentioning to me this morning that she was feeling how weird today is as well. She said something about thinking it may be a full moon or something.

*Smacks hand to forehead and does a Homer Simpson* DOH

Tonight is Full Moon. All the wierdo's come out on days and nights like this.

As Tonya and I were sitting here talking of full moons another Coworker asked me.....Amy, Are you a Werewolf? Replying in my smart assed way I said "No, Im a vampire, and not one of those Faggy Sparkly Twilight Vampires" The only thing he could say to that is..."Thats so last year."

Happy Full Moon All! Stay indoors or all those naughty little Werewolves are gonna come and getcha!

Fat, Men and Other Oddities.

Fat.....Yes I have it and NO, I don't want it.

Men.....No I don't have one and maybe I want one.....I think, still not quite sure yet.

Other Oddities.......We dont want to really go there, I have oddities in abundance....Okay, Maybe we will go there a little bit, Hahaha.

Believe it or not, All three of these things tie right in together and it all happened at once yesterday!

So, To begin with....Fat. Or to be more specific, my fat.

My Stomach Fat. It needs to go. It's no longer welcome here and needs to find a new home.

So here is the story of how I got the extra squishy around the middle. Last November, just a few days after Thanksgiving, my left knee blew out completely. (See icky gross picture below) Kneecap sitting on the side of my knee, screaming pain, rolling on the ground, alot of tears and I think I threw up a little. Not a good day for Amy to say the least. (Makes Sad Panda Face)



As a result of this horribleness, On December 3rd I went in for reconstructive surgery (Bolts, Bailing Wire and I think some Duct Tape) and was put in a soft cast from my hip to my ankle for 3 months...Count em, 1, 2, 3 months....AAACCCKKK. Not only was I in a cast for that long, I was not allowed to walk on this leg for 2 months and subsequently I was laid up in bed for 8 weeks. The result of this forced confinement was an extra 30 pounds around my already squishy middle and my nice plump behind was now a wide flat dimpled parking space. This makes for a very squishy yet very sad Amy.

Now...#2 on the list. MEN

I love men, I really do. I am a firm heterosexual. ( I like the wiener!!!!LOL) However, the men that have been in my life over the last three years have really made me into a basket case. I view myself as slightly emotionally retarded where relationships with men are concerned anyway. And who could blame me?

I am divorced. I was married for 15 years but it ended badly...and when I say badly, I mean BADLY!!!!!!! So there is strike #1

The few men I dated after the divorce only wanted 1 thing...Yup....Pooty! Now I'm all down for the pooty but I want to be wanted for just more than that. And not to mention, most of the guys were complete ass hat chauvinist piggies. My faith in good men in this world had been shaken at this point.

Strike #2

Well, All Chauvinist assholes aside, I did meet this one guy, I really really liked him and I thought he really really liked me.....Why did I think he liked me as much as I liked him? Well, number 1, he told me so and like the silly thing I can be, I believed him. number 2, The pooty was MIND BLOWING and lastly number 3, one of the Oddities I spoke of earlier in this post did let me know, (Actually screamed at me) THIS IS THE ONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

He was not a chauvinist, but still slightly an Asshat. (he hid the asshattery very well and when it showed itself it was to a very bare minimum...he is a man after-all) the long and short of it boils down to, He is a good good man with alot of love in his heart but has commitment issues. The ending came last July when he told me he had no real feelings for me and said he looked at me as more of a sister than anything but he didn't want to see me again (I think his exact words were...I am removing myself from your path and that I will never see him again...Insert broken heart here)

Strike #3

How does this all tie together?

Well, because of the knee surgery and the extra squishyness I have accumulated, this has been sending me to the park since mid march to walk and walk and walk. The knee needs to get stronger and the Rear End needs to get smaller. So how does me being in the park walking my squishy off all tie into the Man issue?

Back in May, I was doing my daily rounds of the park enjoying the sunshine and breezy air when guess who drives right past me? You guessed it... that guy .....Hmmmmm, I thought to myself. Interesting. I kept walking. As I rounded the corner I saw him with a bunch of his friends doing whatever it was they were doing in the park that evening. I kept walking but thought the whole damn thing was very interesting.

Over the last few weeks I have seen him there off and on with his friends and I know for a fact that he has seen me.....Example of how I know he has seen me.....about 2 weeks ago when he almost ran me over.

Now, Last but not least...#3. Oddities

Even though I still have feelings for good old Wally, And even though I had worked through the heart break and general Ickyness he had caused and have been able to move on, I had decided it would be best for me to start walking in another park so as not to exacerbate the situation. So I made a decision that last night I would not go to the usual place that I would try somewhere new. And As I have said in other posts.....Yup....Big Witch over here....Have this odd thing about me where my guides will out and out talk to me and tell me the things I need to be doing. So as I am sitting putting on my tennis shoes to get ready to go to the new park, I get a very and I mean VERY strong message to go to the old park.

But but but....Nuuuuuuuuuuu....I dun wanna
Message comes through to me again......Yeeessssssssssssssssssss go to the old park...do et, Do Et, DO ET NOW!!! (That and the Two of Cups fell out of my Tarot deck and lay at my feet staring up at me mockingly...Yeah yeah yeah)

So like the good kid that I am......Where do I go...Yup the old park, Just like I was told to do. I walked and I walked and I walked and I walked. He was there and yes he looked good, But here's the deal, I am tired of this type of effort on my part when the man has clearly told me he is not interested. When it all boils down to it, I am not walking in that park to see him...If he wants to see me, he knows where to find me, and maybe....and thats a BIG maybe...I will talk back to him, (Don't get me wrong, I do have feelings for him and I would MAYBE be open to speaking with him and lets face it, He did look Yummy and I know whats truly deep down in his heart) but for now, I am walking in that park for me. I am walking there to enjoy this place that I love, to get myself into shape, help my knee heal and to learn to have a joy of my body again. I love the man, I always will, but after all these strikes, being able to trust a man again is up for debate.

In the mean time, I do listen to my guides, I do follow their instructions because they have never and I mean NEVER let me down and everything has worked out for the absolute best because of them, so believe me when I say, I go forward with their words in my ears with perfect love and perfect trust. I don't know why when or how this is all going to work out and end, All I can do is live in the moment. Feel the breeze on my cheeks, the sun on my shoulders and the joy in my heart for my wonderful wonderful life.

I Live Laugh and Love, and in the end thats how it is suppose to be

Brightest Blessings to one and all

A My Life Update

OMG, Its been way to long...and I mean WWWAAAYYY to long. (Bad blogger)
I have much to tell you all about what has been going on in my life. Happy beautiful things are going on.

As alot of my friends may have known, I started a new job the end of March. I never really talked about it alot because...I wont lie....It was the worst job in the world. You know it's the worst job when you wake up in the morning crying and trying to find any excuse not to be there even though you needed the money in the worst way. You know it's the worst job in the world when you find yourself getting up from your desk every half hour to go hide out in the bathroom...again...in tears. You know it's the worst job in the world when you sneak out 10 minutes early every day just to get the hell out of there not caring if you get in trouble or not.

Yes folks, I worked as a Phone Agent for CONVERGYS!!!!!

Never again. Never ever ever ever again in my whole life will I work for a company that treats you like cattle. A company where you are a number and not a name. A company who could care less about you as a human being and only look at you as a statistic. They paid me shit and the whole building looked and felt like a Dungeon. We were not allowed to have the blinds open on the windows for "Security" reasons..."CoughsBullshitCoughs" and the whole interior looked as if someone with the worst cold in the world sneezed all over the insides and no one cared enough to clean up afterword's. Gross I know.

I struggled for a long time to keep my spirits up and to keep going there day after day. I was becoming depressed again and I could feel the good warmness I was so use to feeling inside of me drain away quickly.

Anyone who knows me knows I have been a practicing witch for along time. I had been working Career and Job spells for months and months and the only thing that had come through for me was gross old Convergys. I began to doubt myself and my abilities to manifest good and wonderful things into my life. Depression truly set in at this time. I would be driving to work in tears hoping my car would vear off the road and hit the concrete barrier just so I wouldn't have to go to work that day.....NOT GOOD PEOPLE......NOT GOOD AT ALL!!!!!!!

One night around the middle of May I was sitting in my circle trying to do yet another New Job/Career Spell hoping that this one would work, when out of the blue my bestest Friend Jade called and said that she could feel me and knew something was up and wanted to know. (Jade is a very gifted Clairvoyant and always calls just at the right moment)

I immediately burst into tears I told her what I was trying to do. She laughed and told me not to stress anymore, she was going to help me. As I sat with my beautiful brown and green candle reciting the incantation, she walked me through an Quantum NLP process. (I will explain more in a later post about what QNLP is, for now, Just Google it and know it WORKS!!!)
Basically what we did that night is take the fear of not getting the job of my dreams out of me and we replaced it with good warm love from the Archangels. We made a list of exactly what I wanted a new job to be filled with only putting positive words and intent into my list.

I wanted to work in a small office environment where my contributions would be recognized and appreciated. Where they would pay me a fair wage for a fair days worth of work. A place where I could easily make Friends and be an important part of a team. Where the work load was easy and I would catch on quickly. A Job in which I wasn't expected to sell anything. A place that I could see myself staying for a very long time.

2 weeks later I received a phone call from a lovely woman by the name of Robin Hartman from a company I put in an application for almost 2 months earlier. Cogent Health Care. Hmmmm, Now where did I hear that name before, Oh Yeah......My Aunt Janet has worked for Cogent for almost 10 years and she told me back the first of April to get my Resume in to the HR department, that she thought they were hiring.

Robin asked if I was still interested in interviewing for a position for the Walgreens Pharmacy Help Desk Agent that a few positions opened up. I jumped on it and said YYYEEESSS. (Well, not quite that way, I was very professional and polite and did not scream yes in poor Robins ear, but Inside I was jumping for JOY!!!!)

3 days later I was sitting in Robins office with Resume in hand and dressed to kill. The interview went so well she had me come in for a second interview with the Department manager and Supervisor. again, Three days later I was once again sitting in an office in front of two very sweet ladies feeling very good about my chances. I went home that afternoon and thanked the Archangels Michael and Raphael for this incredible chance at a new beginning. I felt like I could do anything.
Robin did tell me I would have to wait about a week before a decision was made and that I would know then one way or the other. 7 days, 7 long long days I waited. I continued to go to work at Convergys, Hating every minute of it, yet Praising my Angels for the wonderful new chance they were giving me. I would sit in my grungy little cubical and envision myself sitting at Cogent in a nice big cubical living a good life and loving my job.

The 7'th day came and no phone call by noon. ( I stayed home from work that day just to take this phone call...LOL) I made a decision, If I didn't hear anything by 2 o'clock I would call Robin and get the verdict. 2 o'clock came and I couldn't stand it anymore, I picked up the phone and called Robin and she gave me the GREAT news. I was hired. thanking Robin profusely I hung up the phone and again, burst into tears. This time in complete joy and gratitude at the wonderful gift I had just been given. I gave thanks to my Angels for helping make this happen, I gave thanks to my Mother Goddess Bridget for standing by me and accepting my Magick, I gave thanks to my guides, My Grandmother Virgina, My ancestor Colin Campbell and I gave thanks to The Universe in General.

I started my new job on June 8'th and I have never looked back. And let me tell you all something.....It is just like Jade and I created in my Magickal circle that night in May. I work in a small office environment where my contributions are recognized and appreciated. I am paid a fair wage for a fair days worth of work. It is a place where I can easily make Friends and be an important part of a team. The work load is easy and I did catch on quickly. I don't have to sell anything. This really is a place that I can see myself staying for a very long time.
The long and short of it all is.....I am HAPPY!!!!!

Brightest Blessings to you all!!!!!

Hiding in Plain Sight

I stood in the shadows
You stood in the doorway
I was hidden by darkness
The light streamed over you

You looked beautiful

All I could do was stand and watch
So close, Oh so very close
I could of reached out and touched you
But I didn't

Yet I wanted to, More than anything.

I could hear your voice
I stood silent
I could feel your warmth
It made me glow

You filled me up with your happiness, It has been a long time

You stood bathing in the light
A giant among men
Happier than you had been in a long time
This was a gift from the Goddess

My heart was glad for you and I wanted to share in this with you so badly

I loved you fully and completely at this moment
And I begged for more
"Please let this be the beginning of more things to come,
Magickal things filled with wonder"

I loved you fully and completely at this very moment
Fully and Completely. Hiding in plain sight.

That Hoodoo that you do so well

Things I Should Be Doing

So my friend Jade told me this afternoon that the Magickal items I've given to her to try out have been working phenomenally. She feels I should be selling these items online.

I make different types of magickal oils. You use them to dress candles for candle spells and such. You can also use a drop or two in your bath water for a magickal bath to cleanse yourself before you begin your spell work. I make money and luck drawing oils, I make an incredibly strong power oil and I make a very nice love drawing oil.

She says however that my banishing powder is by far the strongest product I make. Jade and a few of her other friends have tried it out here and there and have had wild and wonderful results. A friend of Jade's placed some of this powder under her bosses chair and she stated that her boss could not stay in his seat the whole day. Something was always coming up to get him away from his desk. Jade used some to remove a bad problem in her business life and her energy has risen and the calmness has returned.

I am thinking either I need to start my own Etsy or just transfer my Tarot site into an actual business for my magickal goods.

The ABC's of Amy

So I found this little bit of fun stuff on many blogs over the last few weeks and I thought...hmm...My turn....so here goes...All about Amy.



A. Age: 37 and I don't wish to discuss this.

B. Bed size: California King...It's massive and oh so comfy

C. Chore you dislike: Dishes, with an all consuming fiery passion of a thousand suns.

D. Dogs: Many in my lifetime but none right now.

E. Essential start to your day: Hot shower and a cold Coke.

F. Favorite color: Green in all it's shades

G. Gold or silver: Sterling Silver or White Gold.

H. Height: 6'1

I. Instruments you play(ed): Classical Cello for over 8 years

J. Job title: Customer Service Rep, Web Site Builder, Mom

K. Kids: 2 wonderful human children and 4 feathery furry babies.


My 17 year old son J.D.


My 14 year old daughter Julie


They really do love each other


My sweet kitty Butch


My sweet kitty Scooter


My little birdie Lenny


My noisy little room mate Mr. Nibbles

L. Live: Utah

M. Mom’s name: Carolyn

N. Nicknames: Ame's, Amos, Blondie, Wench

O. Overnight hospital stays: A few times


P. Pet peeves: Uptight Close minded Condescending Know it all's.

Q. Quote from a movie: "Are you suggesting coconuts migrate?" ~Monty Python and The Holy Grail


R. Righty or lefty: Righty.

S. Siblings: Kelly, Joanie and Holly

T. Tattoo's: My very first and only tattoo I got a week ago and I love her so very very much


U. Underwear: I love very comfy, Very cute boy shorts....No wedgies.

V. Vegetables you don’t like: Way to many to count. it would be easier to tell you about the vegetables I do like

W. What makes you run late: Usually my kids or my lack of wanting to get up out of bed on time.

X. X-rays you've had: Lots. Bad knees, bad kidneys, bad back the car chrash that left 40 stitches in my head


Y. Yummy food you make: My kids pretty much love anything I make from scratch. I love to cook. I would have to say my cheesecake is to die for, JD loves my homemade Pizza and Pasta, Julie loves my Grilled Salmon with oven roasted potatoes and Corn Cakes.

Z. Zoo animal favorites: I hate the zoo. The only zoo I have ever been too was the Hogal Zoo in Salt Lake. It's tiny and small and the poor animals look all cramped and miserable. But I do love the big cats. Mountain Lions especially. (She is my Totem after all.)

The Tattooed Virgin

I have been on this earth for 37 years. Not to long by most standards but still long enough in today's world for going without any ink on my body.

I have always wanted to get a tattoo but something had always prevented me from doing so. Money, time ex-husbands and so on and so forth. Yet my body cried out for Ink. It needed fae magick on her. She screamed it to me time and time again.

I had found my perfect companion in this wonderful little bueaty



I found her about 7 years ago and tried time after time to bring her to life somewhere on my body. It just never happened......till last night that is.

My friend Paul has a friend who is trying to earn extra money to get to Washington State and buy his way into a tattoo parlor. He was doing Tattoo work for nice and cheap to help him on his journey. I saw some of his work and saw just how talented he really was and decided now was the time. I had the money and I have the time so Saturday I did it.


(Just after my back was cleaned and sanitized he stenciled my girl right on my left shoulder blade)


(The outlining was the worst part of it....If someone tells you getting a Tattoo doesn't hurt...they are lying to you. Like hell it doesn't hurt...It hurts like a mother fucker...Imagine the worst cat scratch you've ever had but it going on over and over and over and over and over...Enoch was so full of shit....he tried to tell me that whenever he got Tattooed he feel asleep cause he loved the feel of the vibrations so much...Yeah.Oh and my hell was it messy!)


(He is just about finished with the shading in the blue on her wings and skirt. The shading part wasnt too bad, it was more like someone dragging a needle across your skin over and over again...Wait...thats exactly what its like...LOL Look at how red I am....Ouchie)


(And shes finished, Its not the best picture of her because I'm still all red and bleeding and whatnot but she was so worth it. I love her and now I can really feel the Fae magick I had been missing for years.)

So in conclusion, I am a puss but I would do it again in a heart beat.

De-Motivational Mondays

Its Monday and time for a bit of motivation...Um....De-Motivation. yeah, thats more like it.

I was at the grocery store today and out front of the store was a troop of cute little girl scouts selling yummy Thin Mints and Tag-a-longs. Yay for cookies. I love Girl Scout cookies. Buying Girl Scout cookies is for a good cause actually. It helps the Girl Scout organization as a whole and it helps the girls with social skills and the pride of helping themselves and their troop.

Now if you ever thought of passing these cute little girls by...think on this poster a minute.




Now...Go out and buy some fucking cookies.

It's So Feng Shui

Last Thursday I went to a Feng Shui Dream Board class at the Golden Braid Bookstore taught by my friend Jade. What this class did was give us all an insight to the importance of Feng Shui and how we can manifest out dreams through this Chinese practice of placement and energy flow.

According to the website http://www.whatisfengshui.net/ "Feng Shui is an ancient Chinese practice. It is the art of placing and arranging matter and space in the correct manner such that harmony with the environment is achieved. This harmony can refer to the harmony in the home, in relationships, in wealth and many other aspects in our lives. The practice has been around for several thousands of years and is still practiced in China and many parts of the world up to this day."

What I have found through alot of study is Feng Shui is a very important practice that has proven results. What else I have found out is.....Feng Shui is a pain in the ass.

Do you know how hard it is to Feng Shui a small apartment? Its damn near impossible. Its been driving me nuts for the last two days. There are only so many positions you can put a couch in your apartments living room and apparently none of the places I can put my couch is Feng Shui friendly.

According to this same website I cited above you can also improve your romantic life through Feng Shui...

"Feng Shui Tip
Want to improve your romance? First, clean up your home and free it from clutter. This is because a messy or cluttered room does not promote proper flow of chi. Instead it will leave it stagnant and stale."

Okay...I can agree with that (looks in her scary closet and shudders at the thought of cleaning it out.....Not to mention the recliner full of dirty laundry that has been sitting there over a week)

Feng Shui Tip
"Bedroom, for most of us, is for rest and relaxation only. Hence, do not bring work into the bedroom as the stress of work will permeate the feeling of harmony and make your love life stressful. It is also advisable not to work out in the bedroom as well since the strain and exertion of your exercise could remain and affect your love life. That is Feng Shui Bedroom for you."

But...But...But....I live in a one bedroom apartment and the only place I have room to put my computer is in my bedroom...and since most of my work consists of being on the computer....Dose that mean I'm fucked in the romance department?

Another article I read also stated you shouldn't have any mirrors in your bedroom as others can remove the good flow of Chi through them.....What...The...Hell?...My bedroom is nothing but mirrors. I have a huge mirror over my sink...yes my bathroom sink is in my bedroom..don't ask, my place is tiny....my walk in closet with sliding doors is nothing but mirror and is right in front of my bed...which apparently is also a big no no. So according to Feng Shui...I will never get laid again. That makes me a sad panda.

And according to another article it is optimal to have your bathroom located in the Northwest section of your home.....You can Feng Shui your bathroom?...Well, I guess optimal flow of Chi can help you in there...Get it...Flow...yeah...I'm that good...lol....Funny enough....that is the only thing in my tiny little apartment that is Feng Shui friendly. My bathroom sits directly in the Northwest quadrant of my home. Woohoo me....Bring on the steak...its flowing through baby!

Now apparently if you cannot Feng Shui your furniture and possessions in a optimal flow pattern (Looks at her cramped little space and sighs) you can place things in your home called Feng Shui Cures. A Feng Shui Cure consists of placing an object in a certain spot in your home facing a certain direction to nullify the bad chi and/or to help the flow of good chi into your home.

A cure can be something like a small statue of a Dragon or a Phoenix placed just right. You can get a money tree and place it by your door to help the flow of money come into the home. But be careful, if that part of your home is not in accordance to the Chinese Bagua then you can be doing it all for nothing.

What is A Bagua you ask? Another very important step in the process of Feng Shuing your home. (Is Feng Shuing even a word? I don't care, I'm using it.) It is an 8 sided map or compass to where things in your home should be placed. North South East West Northeast Southeast Northwest and Southwest. In general, The Bagua is another tool that is a pain in the ass. Important....but a huge pain none the less.

Example....The Southwest of your bedroom should be Feng Shui devoted to love and romance.

Well, in the Southwest of my room I have a bathroom medicine cabinet and a bathroom sink. (told you, tiny apartment) And to top it all off...Mirrors EVERYWHERE.......AAACCCKKK. No love for Amy.

How in the hell do you Feng Shui a medicine cabinet and a bathroom sink? All I could do is buy a few cures. I have my Dream Board that is dedicated to love and romance sitting on top of the medicine cabinet...(Its very pretty there and looks down on my as I sleep, all pink and sparkly full of pictures of happy couples holding hands and kissing) and underneath the cabinet I have put two peaking ducks...a cure for the Feng Shui of love.)

Now...Anyone who knows me knows that I am a witch and a Celtic Witch at that. I practice a very old ancient Celtic Irish path of the craft, I work with old Celtic Deities and I love every bit of what I do. Feng Shui however is something very new to me and its confusing the ever living fuck out of me.

Please readers, Don't think I am here bashing the ancient art of Feng Shui, I'm not. It's something I have seen in practice and I have seen it work. It's a practice that has been around for centuries with very proven results. Results I want to be a part of. I want more money flowing into my life, I want love to walk right through my door, sweep me off my feet and take me straight to my bedroom (Waggles Eyebrows suggestively)But holy fuck am I limited in what I can and can't do in my tiny space.

So in conclusion, I keep reading on this ancient art and I keep finding new horrors in my home that are Feng Shui killers and I do my best to cure them. I will keep you updated on the struggle and hopefully I will have some good results soon.

Happy Feng Shuing.

Spell Work Saturday

I have been thinking about what to do for different days of the week to help my little blogging adventure be more productive not only for me but for my readers as well. So on Saturdays I will be introducing a new bit of spell work for those of you who are practitioners of Magick to help you along on your everyday path.

This is a nice little bit of hoodoo that really helps bring in some money when its very much needed. It comes from the book Rootwork by Tayannah Lee McQuillar. Try it, you will LOVE it!!!

It's called "The Big Bank Book" Candle Spell

Ingredients:

A little honey
A little sugar
A little cinnamon
1 green wind chime candle. (I use the wind chime size because they don't take to long to burn down completely and you can actually pack more power into those little candles than you can in a big candle or a votive and the energy is released to the universe quickly.)

Instructions:

Take the green wind chime candle in your hand of power and charge it with the intent of MONEY!!!!!
Once you feel the candle is full of your intent take the honey and put it in a small bowl and mix in the sugar. Anoint the candle with the honey sugar mixture and leave a little of the mixture aside.
Place the candle in its holder then dust with the cinnamon.
Place a little of the honey sugar mixture on your tongue...DO NOT SWALLOW YET....and you then tell that candle covered in honey and sugar exactly what you need and how much you need and when you need it!
See...your sweet talking the candle...LOL
Light the candle and swallow the honey mixture. Bury any remnants of the candle once its burned completely down and remember...Believe and Receive.

Good luck with this spell and Blessed Be

The White Blank Page

It's Late, I cant sleep....Again....and I know I need to blog something.
But what? The white blank page on my computer screen mocks me....Ohhhhhh.....Now I know.
The White Blank Page.




"White Blank Page"
"Can you lie next to her and give her your heart, your heart?
As well as your body, and can you lie next to her and confess your love, your love?
As well as your folly and can you kneel before the king and say ‘I’m clean’, ‘I’m Clean’?

But tell me now where was my fault, in loving you with my whole heart?
But tell me now where was my fault, in loving you with my whole heart?

Her white blank page & a swelling rage, rage
You did not think when you sent me to the brink, the brink
You desired my attention but denied my affections, affections

But tell me now where was my fault, in loving you with my whole heart.
But tell me now where was my fault, in loving you with my whole heart

Lead my to the truth and I will follow you with my whole life
Lead my to the truth and I will follow you with my whole life"
~Mumford and Sons~

This song has been haunting me since the moment I heard it. I can see him standing there, dressed as the knight he once was in life times past...The courts herald asking him...Can you kneel before this King and say 'I'm Clean'?
Why is it that you so much desire my attention but when I gave it to you you denied my affections? Do you even realize how close the brink you actually sent me?
I still think of you and miss you from time to time. I do hope you are well and that you are healing. As for me, I live, I Laugh and I Love and that is just how it is suppose to be.

My New Boyfreind. Marcus Mumford of the Mighty Mustache.

That mustache does things to me. Naughty tingly things. I love my new boyfriend Marcus Mumford of the awesome mustache. We shall be running away to England soon where I shall have all his babies and we shall live happily ever after forever and ever amen. :D

Hes a Rock Star...sort of....Totally talented. But hes a cute fat boy and I love him and were gonna run away together and live in England. :D...I'm not delusional...Nope, not me. Perfectly normal in every way!!!!!

And in ending to this post dear readers......It doesn't matter at all that hes only 24 either.....In fact...Its a plus.

Bad Bad Blogger

Its been since May of 2009 since I have poked my head on here and I should be thoroughly and utterly ashamed of myself.

Recently I have been helping a very close friend set up her blog and web site for her business and to help market herself and I'm lucky and blessed to be able to have helped her with those things, That is what brought me back here to my little blogging world I loved so much. (If you get a minute go check out her blog, She is incredible. http://cisnebellabyjade.blogspot.com/)

I use to love this blog. It was a venting tool for me even though no one ever read it. That was okay with me. It was my spot. My personal area of security and comfort. I would like to have that back.....So...I'm taking it back!

It's funny however, As I go through the past posts I cant help but laugh at my emo girl who lived here.

Just WOW. She had issues. Well...she still does but she doesn't come around much anymore.

I still have the same issues as I did two years ago. You know the issues.
In love with a guy who can be a total douche
Trying to date in today's world (that's a scary adventure in and of itself)
Trying to raise two teenage kids alone
And just dealing with the everyday things life likes to throw at me.

Luckily for me since I had last posted on this blog, I have found alot of really great tools to help me deal and cope with these fun little things that I didn't have before. (Alot of them coming from the lady I helped create the blog and web site for...seriously..check her out...do it...do it now... http://cisnebellabyjade.blogspot.com/)

So with all that being said, I'm glad to be back and I hope as my time permits me to be posting and publishing alot more over the next weeks months and years.