My Weekend And How The Celtic Cross Explains It All

I had the best weekend.

It was full of Harry Potter, A trip to Roy and Chock full of Sleeping In and reading. Not to mention a certian amout of HIGH Dragon Energy comming from a certian someone.

The Energy I was reciving was amazing. I hadnt felt that kind of Energy from this particular individuale in alog time.

I pulled my cards and I did a reading concerning this energy bieng directed at me. Me and my curiosity. LOL

I did a celtic Cross spread. This is what it looks like.





1. The Basis:
The basis of the situation. The general tone of the reading and the problem for the querent.



The Hierophant
Tradition
What has worked before works equally well now. History holds many answers. Some rules simply cannot be broken. An adherence to tradition, old rules, the cycles of nature and the most fundamental truths.

2. Obstacles:
The challenges or obstacles that lie in the querent's path. This "crossover card" is always read in the upright position.



The Star
Hope
Faith brings unexpected assistance. Dreams should never be put aside and must always remain part of one's personal life-equation. Hope springs eternal as does the light of the star. Look far into the distance.

3. Subconscious:
How the querent truly feels about the matter. These are hidden thoughts, fears or emotions which may come into play now or at a later time.



Four of Cups
Mixed Emotions
A confusion of emotions and thoughts. That which was once clear has become sullied with too many outside forces. Something has gone off course. Remember what you want. Avoid temptation.

4. The Past:
The events in the recent past that influence or effect the querent's question. Possibly a person, an event or a previous psychological or spiritual state.



Nine of Pentcals
[ inverted meaning ]
A bad risk. What was ventured has now been lost. A waste of time or money. A message regarding damage and loss.

5. The Conscious:
The querent's surface feelings, or conscious thoughts on the subject. Compare with Position #3.



The World
[ inverted meaning ]
A false sense of completion. To "rest on one's laurels". Becoming lazy after a minor accomplishment. The road goes on, do not rest here.

6. The Future:
An event, state of mind, person or spiritual state that will occur in the future.



Four of Wands
Perfection
Visual beauty and perfect grace. Unions of perfect harmony and beautiful synergy. The pursuit of flawlessness. A good relationship.

7. The Querent:
This position gives insight into the current attitude of the querent and how they fit into the situation.



Eight of Pentacles
[ inverted meaning ]
Sloppiness. A task that has been completed without care. A failure to learn from the mistakes of the past. An oversight.

8. The Environment:
This position relates to the relative surroundings of the querent in this matter. Consider relationships including friends, family or professional associates.



Ten of Wands
[ inverted meaning ]
Difficult demands are met. Inhibitions are overcome. A time for personal liberation is at hand.

9. Hopes and Fears:
This position provides insight into the querent's outlook about resolutions and outcomes of the situation -- or who the querent hopes (or fears) will be involved.



Seven of Pentcals
[ inverted meaning ]
Diligence. An attention to detail at every level. A labour of love. A task which bears the mark of attention and perfectionism

10. Final Outcome:
This position gives a glimpse into the final outcome of the situation and how it will play out over time.



Temperance
Moderation
Moderation in all forms including spiritual, physical, intellectual and emotional. Walk the middle path. Balance and even-handedness.

What this all boils down to is, I was throught about alot over the weekend by this certian individual and the things that I have wanted and wished for could come to pass if I have paitents.


Good luck to you all and remeber, Brightest blessings.

Hey Amy, Are you a Werewolf?

Have you ever had one of those days? Not a bad day.......exactly, but not a great day either......Just a wierd day.

One of those kind of days where work is abnormally busy. One of those days that the people you are dealing with on the phones are a little...Ummm....Lets be nice and not say...."Coughs"......Retarded maybe? How about we will call it Moon Struck! Yeah Moon Struck is a good word for it. One of those days that leave you feeling dizzy and not knowing if you are comming or going.

I am having one of these types of days. The phones are ringing off the hook with the strangest and mostly.....STUPIDEST things you could imagine. (I swear to the God's someone has had to have dumped a HUGE supply of Valume and/or Cocaine in the Main Water supply for America because almost everyone around the country I have talked to is ether High or just doesnt give a fuck) Little bits of Drama keep popping up in my perosnal life that I thought I had squashed along time ago and I am now Having to squash again and all my guy freinds around me feel the need to tell me just how horney they really truly are at this very moment....Like I can or WILL do anything about that...AAACCCKKK

My friend Tonya was mentioning to me this morning that she was feeling how weird today is as well. She said something about thinking it may be a full moon or something.

*Smacks hand to forehead and does a Homer Simpson* DOH

Tonight is Full Moon. All the wierdo's come out on days and nights like this.

As Tonya and I were sitting here talking of full moons another Coworker asked me.....Amy, Are you a Werewolf? Replying in my smart assed way I said "No, Im a vampire, and not one of those Faggy Sparkly Twilight Vampires" The only thing he could say to that is..."Thats so last year."

Happy Full Moon All! Stay indoors or all those naughty little Werewolves are gonna come and getcha!

Fat, Men and Other Oddities.

Fat.....Yes I have it and NO, I don't want it.

Men.....No I don't have one and maybe I want one.....I think, still not quite sure yet.

Other Oddities.......We dont want to really go there, I have oddities in abundance....Okay, Maybe we will go there a little bit, Hahaha.

Believe it or not, All three of these things tie right in together and it all happened at once yesterday!

So, To begin with....Fat. Or to be more specific, my fat.

My Stomach Fat. It needs to go. It's no longer welcome here and needs to find a new home.

So here is the story of how I got the extra squishy around the middle. Last November, just a few days after Thanksgiving, my left knee blew out completely. (See icky gross picture below) Kneecap sitting on the side of my knee, screaming pain, rolling on the ground, alot of tears and I think I threw up a little. Not a good day for Amy to say the least. (Makes Sad Panda Face)



As a result of this horribleness, On December 3rd I went in for reconstructive surgery (Bolts, Bailing Wire and I think some Duct Tape) and was put in a soft cast from my hip to my ankle for 3 months...Count em, 1, 2, 3 months....AAACCCKKK. Not only was I in a cast for that long, I was not allowed to walk on this leg for 2 months and subsequently I was laid up in bed for 8 weeks. The result of this forced confinement was an extra 30 pounds around my already squishy middle and my nice plump behind was now a wide flat dimpled parking space. This makes for a very squishy yet very sad Amy.

Now...#2 on the list. MEN

I love men, I really do. I am a firm heterosexual. ( I like the wiener!!!!LOL) However, the men that have been in my life over the last three years have really made me into a basket case. I view myself as slightly emotionally retarded where relationships with men are concerned anyway. And who could blame me?

I am divorced. I was married for 15 years but it ended badly...and when I say badly, I mean BADLY!!!!!!! So there is strike #1

The few men I dated after the divorce only wanted 1 thing...Yup....Pooty! Now I'm all down for the pooty but I want to be wanted for just more than that. And not to mention, most of the guys were complete ass hat chauvinist piggies. My faith in good men in this world had been shaken at this point.

Strike #2

Well, All Chauvinist assholes aside, I did meet this one guy, I really really liked him and I thought he really really liked me.....Why did I think he liked me as much as I liked him? Well, number 1, he told me so and like the silly thing I can be, I believed him. number 2, The pooty was MIND BLOWING and lastly number 3, one of the Oddities I spoke of earlier in this post did let me know, (Actually screamed at me) THIS IS THE ONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

He was not a chauvinist, but still slightly an Asshat. (he hid the asshattery very well and when it showed itself it was to a very bare minimum...he is a man after-all) the long and short of it boils down to, He is a good good man with alot of love in his heart but has commitment issues. The ending came last July when he told me he had no real feelings for me and said he looked at me as more of a sister than anything but he didn't want to see me again (I think his exact words were...I am removing myself from your path and that I will never see him again...Insert broken heart here)

Strike #3

How does this all tie together?

Well, because of the knee surgery and the extra squishyness I have accumulated, this has been sending me to the park since mid march to walk and walk and walk. The knee needs to get stronger and the Rear End needs to get smaller. So how does me being in the park walking my squishy off all tie into the Man issue?

Back in May, I was doing my daily rounds of the park enjoying the sunshine and breezy air when guess who drives right past me? You guessed it... that guy .....Hmmmmm, I thought to myself. Interesting. I kept walking. As I rounded the corner I saw him with a bunch of his friends doing whatever it was they were doing in the park that evening. I kept walking but thought the whole damn thing was very interesting.

Over the last few weeks I have seen him there off and on with his friends and I know for a fact that he has seen me.....Example of how I know he has seen me.....about 2 weeks ago when he almost ran me over.

Now, Last but not least...#3. Oddities

Even though I still have feelings for good old Wally, And even though I had worked through the heart break and general Ickyness he had caused and have been able to move on, I had decided it would be best for me to start walking in another park so as not to exacerbate the situation. So I made a decision that last night I would not go to the usual place that I would try somewhere new. And As I have said in other posts.....Yup....Big Witch over here....Have this odd thing about me where my guides will out and out talk to me and tell me the things I need to be doing. So as I am sitting putting on my tennis shoes to get ready to go to the new park, I get a very and I mean VERY strong message to go to the old park.

But but but....Nuuuuuuuuuuu....I dun wanna
Message comes through to me again......Yeeessssssssssssssssssss go to the old park...do et, Do Et, DO ET NOW!!! (That and the Two of Cups fell out of my Tarot deck and lay at my feet staring up at me mockingly...Yeah yeah yeah)

So like the good kid that I am......Where do I go...Yup the old park, Just like I was told to do. I walked and I walked and I walked and I walked. He was there and yes he looked good, But here's the deal, I am tired of this type of effort on my part when the man has clearly told me he is not interested. When it all boils down to it, I am not walking in that park to see him...If he wants to see me, he knows where to find me, and maybe....and thats a BIG maybe...I will talk back to him, (Don't get me wrong, I do have feelings for him and I would MAYBE be open to speaking with him and lets face it, He did look Yummy and I know whats truly deep down in his heart) but for now, I am walking in that park for me. I am walking there to enjoy this place that I love, to get myself into shape, help my knee heal and to learn to have a joy of my body again. I love the man, I always will, but after all these strikes, being able to trust a man again is up for debate.

In the mean time, I do listen to my guides, I do follow their instructions because they have never and I mean NEVER let me down and everything has worked out for the absolute best because of them, so believe me when I say, I go forward with their words in my ears with perfect love and perfect trust. I don't know why when or how this is all going to work out and end, All I can do is live in the moment. Feel the breeze on my cheeks, the sun on my shoulders and the joy in my heart for my wonderful wonderful life.

I Live Laugh and Love, and in the end thats how it is suppose to be

Brightest Blessings to one and all

A My Life Update

OMG, Its been way to long...and I mean WWWAAAYYY to long. (Bad blogger)
I have much to tell you all about what has been going on in my life. Happy beautiful things are going on.

As alot of my friends may have known, I started a new job the end of March. I never really talked about it alot because...I wont lie....It was the worst job in the world. You know it's the worst job when you wake up in the morning crying and trying to find any excuse not to be there even though you needed the money in the worst way. You know it's the worst job in the world when you find yourself getting up from your desk every half hour to go hide out in the bathroom...again...in tears. You know it's the worst job in the world when you sneak out 10 minutes early every day just to get the hell out of there not caring if you get in trouble or not.

Yes folks, I worked as a Phone Agent for CONVERGYS!!!!!

Never again. Never ever ever ever again in my whole life will I work for a company that treats you like cattle. A company where you are a number and not a name. A company who could care less about you as a human being and only look at you as a statistic. They paid me shit and the whole building looked and felt like a Dungeon. We were not allowed to have the blinds open on the windows for "Security" reasons..."CoughsBullshitCoughs" and the whole interior looked as if someone with the worst cold in the world sneezed all over the insides and no one cared enough to clean up afterword's. Gross I know.

I struggled for a long time to keep my spirits up and to keep going there day after day. I was becoming depressed again and I could feel the good warmness I was so use to feeling inside of me drain away quickly.

Anyone who knows me knows I have been a practicing witch for along time. I had been working Career and Job spells for months and months and the only thing that had come through for me was gross old Convergys. I began to doubt myself and my abilities to manifest good and wonderful things into my life. Depression truly set in at this time. I would be driving to work in tears hoping my car would vear off the road and hit the concrete barrier just so I wouldn't have to go to work that day.....NOT GOOD PEOPLE......NOT GOOD AT ALL!!!!!!!

One night around the middle of May I was sitting in my circle trying to do yet another New Job/Career Spell hoping that this one would work, when out of the blue my bestest Friend Jade called and said that she could feel me and knew something was up and wanted to know. (Jade is a very gifted Clairvoyant and always calls just at the right moment)

I immediately burst into tears I told her what I was trying to do. She laughed and told me not to stress anymore, she was going to help me. As I sat with my beautiful brown and green candle reciting the incantation, she walked me through an Quantum NLP process. (I will explain more in a later post about what QNLP is, for now, Just Google it and know it WORKS!!!)
Basically what we did that night is take the fear of not getting the job of my dreams out of me and we replaced it with good warm love from the Archangels. We made a list of exactly what I wanted a new job to be filled with only putting positive words and intent into my list.

I wanted to work in a small office environment where my contributions would be recognized and appreciated. Where they would pay me a fair wage for a fair days worth of work. A place where I could easily make Friends and be an important part of a team. Where the work load was easy and I would catch on quickly. A Job in which I wasn't expected to sell anything. A place that I could see myself staying for a very long time.

2 weeks later I received a phone call from a lovely woman by the name of Robin Hartman from a company I put in an application for almost 2 months earlier. Cogent Health Care. Hmmmm, Now where did I hear that name before, Oh Yeah......My Aunt Janet has worked for Cogent for almost 10 years and she told me back the first of April to get my Resume in to the HR department, that she thought they were hiring.

Robin asked if I was still interested in interviewing for a position for the Walgreens Pharmacy Help Desk Agent that a few positions opened up. I jumped on it and said YYYEEESSS. (Well, not quite that way, I was very professional and polite and did not scream yes in poor Robins ear, but Inside I was jumping for JOY!!!!)

3 days later I was sitting in Robins office with Resume in hand and dressed to kill. The interview went so well she had me come in for a second interview with the Department manager and Supervisor. again, Three days later I was once again sitting in an office in front of two very sweet ladies feeling very good about my chances. I went home that afternoon and thanked the Archangels Michael and Raphael for this incredible chance at a new beginning. I felt like I could do anything.
Robin did tell me I would have to wait about a week before a decision was made and that I would know then one way or the other. 7 days, 7 long long days I waited. I continued to go to work at Convergys, Hating every minute of it, yet Praising my Angels for the wonderful new chance they were giving me. I would sit in my grungy little cubical and envision myself sitting at Cogent in a nice big cubical living a good life and loving my job.

The 7'th day came and no phone call by noon. ( I stayed home from work that day just to take this phone call...LOL) I made a decision, If I didn't hear anything by 2 o'clock I would call Robin and get the verdict. 2 o'clock came and I couldn't stand it anymore, I picked up the phone and called Robin and she gave me the GREAT news. I was hired. thanking Robin profusely I hung up the phone and again, burst into tears. This time in complete joy and gratitude at the wonderful gift I had just been given. I gave thanks to my Angels for helping make this happen, I gave thanks to my Mother Goddess Bridget for standing by me and accepting my Magick, I gave thanks to my guides, My Grandmother Virgina, My ancestor Colin Campbell and I gave thanks to The Universe in General.

I started my new job on June 8'th and I have never looked back. And let me tell you all something.....It is just like Jade and I created in my Magickal circle that night in May. I work in a small office environment where my contributions are recognized and appreciated. I am paid a fair wage for a fair days worth of work. It is a place where I can easily make Friends and be an important part of a team. The work load is easy and I did catch on quickly. I don't have to sell anything. This really is a place that I can see myself staying for a very long time.
The long and short of it all is.....I am HAPPY!!!!!

Brightest Blessings to you all!!!!!