Sometime Around Midnight

For my AJ

Dead and Gone

From what I was to what I am now is a complete 360 turn around.

I use to weigh almost 300 lbs
I use to be so depressed I couldn't get out of bed in the morning
I was so dependant on my ex husband for my happiness I for got about everything else.

And then to add insult to injury my ex walked out on me on our 15 year anniversary
I lost it.

But then a light at the end of the tunnel
He was gone and I was free

I now wigh about 190 and I look fabulous
I learned I didn't need a husband to be happy, the happiness was inside the whole time
I learned I am dependable and I can depend on myself and not be dependant on anyone
I learned to like myself
I Like Myself

That is a phrase I haven't been able to say in along time
I am right where I need to be
I have a beautiful place to live
2 kids who love me and at times still need me
A good and stable job
A chance at a really good thing with a really great guy that I care so much about
I have let go of so much hate and that has freed up alot of space in my life
I have found my Patience

Ive travelled along way to get to where I'm at and yes, the old me is dead and gone.

The Peach

On a web site called OK Cupid I took this dating persona test and this is what they evaluated me as being....which is kinda funny, cause they got it right!



The Peach
Random Gentle Love Master

Playful, kind, and well-loved, you are The Peach.

For such a warm-hearted, generous person, you’re surprisingly experienced in both love and sex. We credit your spontaneous side; you tend to live in the moment, and you don’t get bogged down by inhibitions like most women your age. If you see something wonderful, you confidently embrace it.

You are a fun flirt and an instant sweetheart, but our guess is you’re becoming more selective about long-term love. It’s getting tougher for you to become permanently attached; and a guy who’s in a different place emotionally might misunderstand your early enthusiasm. You can wreck someone simply by enjoying him.

Your ideal mate is adventurous and giving, like you. But not overly intense.